Sharper Emotions
Sometimes I wonderIf I feel too intensely
If my heart breaks too easily
Why I need to be handled so delicately
Desperately I desire to numb the sensitivity
The emotions that are sharper
Aren't just those darker
My laugh echos louder
and smiles run deeper
My love creates cosmic energy
which I feel moving through each inch of me
So maybe it's a blessing
that I don't feel less
Although mostly it seems
I'm an emotional mess.
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Too Sensitive
Maybe next timebefore you
confidently claim
I'm too sensitive
You might
think of my feelings
before you go about
hurting them.
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Unsure
For a preciousperfect instant
I felt so sure
But a moon has passed
and I guess I don't
anymore.
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Mosaic
I thoughtYou'd changed
That the past was something
we could rearrange.
Gentles kisses would allow me
to disengage
Instead, I'm questioning why I stayed,
mistakes I've made.
I hoped we'd make
what we'd broken
into something
beautiful
Like a ceramic mosaic,
Sticking shards to create art, in the places it fell apart.
But there's familiar you
I see peeking through
between giggles and kind gestures.
I can't unsee
You can't unsay
So maybe it's best
we call it a day.
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One Week
Only a week has passed
Since I wondered
If it were too soon
to tell you
I love you.
Now I'm questioning
whether it's
too late
to say
Goodbye.
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Irrelevant
How I strongly I feelfor you
Is irrelevant
when it weakens
How I feel about
myself.
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Feeling Heavy
I think of my weight so often
it leaves me feeling heavy
My clothes feel tight
and my mind implies
that's not alright.
I punish my mistakes,
eat another slice of cake
and whisper
diet starts
tomorrow.
Tomorrow comes, I poke my tum
and eternalise shame
Finding somewhere new to point the blame.
as if the shape of my body cause for complaint.
as if my curves represent wrongdoings
and stretch marks are a nuisance.
I analyse my size, wonder if I'm too wide.
But if I took a moment to push the aesthetics aside,
be cliché and think of inside,
I'd remember
it's this body is keeping me alive.
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Monochrome Kaleidoscope
It's like I'm looking through acryptic kaleidoscope
Of mirrored, shattered
black, grey and white
In search of confidence, it will be alright.
When I can't see clearly
through the monochrome
Alone amongst dancing disjointed shapes
Unable to see means of
escape.
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Unreachable
Late twentieslonging
for a career
which I can't quite reach
Is the loneliest place,
I've ever been.
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Happily ever after
I felt free and light and happyand then you called me heavy
and then it hit me
the weight of us
the weight of falling back
in love
Wondering if I'm enough
or maybe I'm too much.
Of knowing I deserve better
More than the kindness you endeavour
but can't quite master.
There's Gilmore Girls and sunny days of laughter
and
occasional
coffee shop
tears
They leave you, confused. Unamused.
Brilliant, beautiful and emotional
It isn't a complete disaster
yet that's not the recipe for
happily after ever.
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Drunken, Dancing Souls
The music stops.The light obnoxiously turns on.
We realise the crowd has dissolved into a few drunken souls
dancing
through the chatter-filled silence.
We're not ready to go home.
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Not so pretty poetry
These words entanglementswe're supposed to bear some resemblance
to poetry
pretty poetry.
They shouldn't be means to complain
but my body and soul
I feel they've been drained
So we're left with the scribbles
of going insane.
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