04.10.16
As I built up the courage
to utter the words
you laughed,
in my face

So, my 
I miss you
will go unheard.

_______

05.10.16
I became wrapped up in myself
Because you wouldn't allow me
to be
wrapped up
in you

Bitter makes selfish
through and through

_______

05.10.16
I am proud of all these raw, honest things that
I do,

So laugh,
all that you, please
Because, gleefully
I'm laughing too.

Mock me, block me, but your
bitterness
won't stop me.
Genuine lips turn to smile
Because I take pride when we say
I've got my own
style.

______

05.10.16
As I longingly wonder over the intricate
delicate details of your day

And ponder helplessly over the windows,
Winding, whirls of your brain.

Selfish, you say
As thoughts of you drive me
Insane.
_______

 05.10.16
We should be still

You're an ocean, your waves come
crashing in
I'm the jagged rocks 
which slowly crumble
at these careless forceful encounters. I
turn to dust.

The elements change their mind
there's a change of heart
in the air
The wind stays, frozen.

Together we are still, as the rock
embraces the 
steady ocean.
There's more than beauty in this lack of 
motion.

_______

06.10.16
The girl who was always stuck in her 
head
Found herself present
In a moment
An unforgettable, unmemorable minute
While her head lost it's vision
Based on hearts decision.

Her head came down from the clouds
Blissfully ignorant to the rain and thunder
So loud

Hearts were beating louder
With the loss of all power
by entangled bodies
And forces claiming 
kisses
Fingertips drawn to 
touching
Bodies laughing
aloud.

The only moment to remove her head from the 
cloud
For once her head was quiet
and the world was
loud.

_______

08.10.16
I cannot decide whether it's twisted
Or beautiful
that you inspire me enough
to write broken poetry of 
hurting hearts
And feel world's apart
As I sit in M&S 

Over coffee and cake
I tremble over every mistake

_______

08.10.16
I guess, there's not really anything special
about 
that you sometimes felt like sharing
And sometimes you didn't
No messages hidden
Just meaningless, emotional rhythm 

_______

08.10.16
It's somewhat comforting, to think our version 
of fate
Was more dependent on alcohol intake
and planned mistake.

_______

16.10.16
I hate to admit
I have a feeling
about
you

My gut tends to tell 
white lies of loneliness
but I hope this time
it's true

_______

16.10.16
I hope you know 
I wonder
How your mind
is keeping

I do not ask
My questions don't feel welcome
As in spite of kind communication
It's some sort of probation
We both know
Arguments always arrive

_______

24.10.16
I realise I don't like the thoughts which fill 
your brain, those little habits, the 
company you keep

It's more the way
your name rolls off my 
tongue
and how comfortably I can lay my head upon 
you stomach
hoping you don't suppress a need
to twiddle my red hair 
amongst your dirty
fingers.