Monday, 30 April 2018

Don't Drag It Out.




We have a tendency to stick with things because of what they once were, and what we hope they'll become again, rather than what they now are.

Relationships lose their spark, friendships fizzle and the sun sets on even the brightest of days.

When the vivid colours of a relationship fade, it easy to wish them back as you watch them dull. although something which was once wonderful is no longer there. As time ticks on while you sit back and watch something decay, the more you resent it for what it could have been for what it once was.

The thing is, what it could have been or once was, don't actually exist anymore, beyond the image in your head. It's not real. So why hold onto something mediocre for an idea, rather than something tangible.  It does not exist, nor will it ever.

Life is short, and do you really have the time to waste on something that's not bringing you all of the joy you deserve,  because it once did? Letting it become something which doesn't have the spinning in a world of happiness, only tarnishes what it once was. Once it becomes the bearer of disappointment, you soon forget the days it gave you a spring in your step.


I've fallen in love before and held onto it for too long, and now I look back to that time with a bad taste in my mouth. The passion our feelings transformed from love to anger and hurt. I feel the sting by the toxic explosion each time it crossed my mind. Saying goodbye when the love fizzled would have been enough.The joy I felt when I lived in the midst of love would be a forefront in my mind, it would not be overshadowed by the ugly thing it grew into.

It goes beyond the realm of romantic relationships. My friend and I recently spent the day together, and it was really the most wonderful day. We talk for hours on end, occasionally interrupting each other, as we're bursting to point out what a lovely time we were having. As it was heading towards the evening, we searched for somewhere new to have a drink, and suddenly there was an overwhelm of Friday night crowds, which transformed the previously serene atmosphere. We became aware of our purse strings, and the noise surrounding us. The magic of the day was over, so we skipped the drinks, and said goodbye. On my journey home a beautiful sunset filled the clear sky. Realistically if we stay out, we would I woke up thinking "urgh I feel so hungover" "Oh I hope I didn't spend too much" "I drank so much, how embarrassing". Instead, I woke up, feeling fresh at 8am, feeling happy about how great the day before was. And I got to see that beautiful sunset.


You know sometimes predrinks are better than the night out? 

Maybe that's because things don't always need to be dragged out, and as soon as the good time comes to a stop, rather than enduring having a shit time hoping for the good times to show there face again, maybe it's just time to head home. 










Outfit Details:



Dress: Topshop

Jacket (old. similar linked): Whistles

Shoes (old, similar linked): New Look

Necklace: ASOS

Earrings: ASOS

Lipstick: Channel Rogue Allure Velvet in 37 L'Exubérante






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Monday, 16 April 2018

When You're Uninspired.



Lately, I have been stuck in a creative rut. I have been feeling uninspired and in turn, demotivated as they tend to come hand in hand for me.You may have noticed I've been a lot quieter on my Instagram and Youtube, that has simply been because the ideas haven't been flowing and I haven't wanted to put out some half-assed content for the sake of posting. Anyway, I think my spark is coming back, so I thought I'd share how I lit that fire.






Vision Boarding

Something I'd been meaning to do since I read The Secret last year was to create a vision board, but I only recently got round to it. I hadn't planned to do this day, so I didn't have a magazine I bought especially, I just used what I had. I picked out the things my eyes lingered a little longer over. This is definitely something I'll do again (I cannot wait to get myself some house magazine and plan my future home)


Go out 

Go for a walk, see your friends, treat yourself to lunch. Anything that will get into a different space. Inspiration isn't going to come if you don't see anything new.



Reorganise your space 

Your surrounding matter. If your belonging has been in
 the same places or too long, they begin to feel a little
lifeless. Moving them around will give energy back to
them, and make things feel a little fresher.


Ignore it 

Stop thinking "I wish I felt inspired" and concentrate
on something else.



Exercise 

I personally like to do yoga when I need a little mind
refresh, concentrating on your body does great things
for your mind.


Do something else creative 

I like to either paint or crochet when I'm feeling
 uninspired in other areas. Doing something else which
 is creative keeps that energy alive. This is one of the
main points of Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert I took
away with me.


Find Content That Inspires You

When I feel lost in the world of blogging, I look to the creators I love to remind me why I started, not to copy their ideas, but to simply enjoy what they create. Knowing I enjoy the things others create makes me want to create for others to enjoy. 


I'd love to hear know how you find inspiration!
Love C x


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Friday, 13 April 2018

Bedside Bits and Bobs.


I thought I'd show you the things which take prize position on my bedside table, from the beauty bits to the books. Despite it being such a small space I love to play around with styling my bedside table, doing my best to make it both as functional and as pretty as possible.



The Books


which is the book I'm currently reading, this will 
get swapped when I'm on to the next one. 

 I like to keep a poetry book nearby and at the moment 
I am very much in love with this one.

This one is pretty much there because it's pretty. 

Kate Spade Notebook which I use as a Gratitude Journal 




The Beauty Bits:


Neom Sleep Rollerball (from a set that's been
discontinued - similar set linked!)

Neom Sleep Pillow Spray (from a set that's
been discontinued - similar set linked!)






The Pretty Bits:


A String of Hearts Plant  (potted on the dresser next to bedside table)

Crystals - gotta keep those positive energies flowing, plus they look pretty










The 

The Functional Bits:







You may have noticed I'm clearly terrible at narrowing down photos, but more is less, right? I hope you enjoyed this sneak preview into my bedside table!


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Monday, 9 April 2018

New Hair, New Habits.





On Friday I stepped into the hairdresser and asked to get most of my mop chopped off. I didn't feel slightly nervous as I watched long hair float to the ground or saw the scissor wave goodbye to my locks.

I wanted to feel brand new, and of course, a new hairstyle is the best way to do that. 


Despite the obvious fact all a haircut changes is your appearance, there's something about having a big hair change which feels like your entire world might in fact change, and you might just become that person you always dream of being. You know the one who wakes up at 6am, does yoga and still drinks cocktails with her friends who laugh endlessly at her jokes (I'm not even slightly funny so I have 0 chance of that).  She's mindful, successful, social, and has all the time in the world.

Realistically the only way to become this new person (minus the being hilarious part because I just not a capable of that) is to change my habits, not just my hair. So now I've got new hair, it's time to work on some new habits, to give myself every possible chance of becoming a version of myself which I admire. So, I'm going to work on implementing these habits.

- Regular Yoga - I've recently got into yoga, thank you lord for Yoga with Adrienne. I'm going to 30-day yoga challenge to really push myself. When  I'm feeling brave enough I'm also going to start going to a class.

- Mediation - I am a huge fan of meditation, but it's easy to get out of the habit of doing it. I want daily mediation to become second nature. I used the Headspace or Stop, Breathe and Think app FYI.

- Running - There was a time when I used to go for a run pretty regularly. Since breaking the habit I've struggled to pick it back up, the main reasons being I'm lazy and I'm unfit. Although I'm hyper-aware that needs to change, knowing it's something I'm going to be rubbish at for a while is off-putting. It's time to leave the excuse behind however and just run.

- Painting - I love painting, I'd say I probably feel most relaxed when I paint, however, it's something I've not done once this entire yet. It's a hobby which is easy to abandon when you get 'busy', however, it's something which makes me really joyful so it's time I made the time.

- Writing Poetry - I write a lot of short poems (I post them on my instragram and you can read some in this blogpost) which honestly I don't put much thought into, I just write down whatever comes out. I want to really start dedicating time to writing poetry and begin writing some longer pieces. I want to be able to call myself a poet without feeling like a fraud.

- Gratitude Journal - This is another habit with I tend to pick up and put back down. Life always feels a little nicer when I take the time to write down the things I'm grateful for and take a moment to reflect on my wonderful life.

- Journalling - I want to start writing more stuff for me.

- 1 Second a day - On my 26th birthday I downloaded the second a day app, with the plan to film one second every day until my 27th birthday.  However, I soon realised my life can't be pretty mediocre and I am forgetful. However, I want to start picking up my phone and filming that second each day to encourage me to find the beauty in the every day and make the most of my life.

- Line a day journal - I have one of those five-year line a day journals, which this year the content is looking pretty sparse on. I need to get back in the habit of writing that line each day.

- Eat Better - I'm trying to eat more good stuff and less bad stuff, simple.

- Make more time for friends, do cool things - Often I let my introvert personality type convince me that I'm better to stay home. I want to start putting more energy into my friendships and finding more cool things to do with my friends.

- Upload blogposts twice weekly - I've been doing weekly blog post for a couple of months now and although I feel the quality of my posts are better than when I tried a failed to do 3/4 posts a week, I also have found myself feeling a little lazier with blogging, leaving posts until the last minute because I've got an entire week to complete each post. I think writing two posts a week will give me a kick up the bum and still be sustainable (so look out every Monday and Fridays at 12am). Yes I know this one is going up a tad late, let's ignore that.

- Book Writing - One of my new years resolutions was to get the first draft of my book completely finished ready to start agent/publisher searching and although I've spent a bit of time on it, I've got a long way to go, I want to start getting into the habit of writing a little (or a lot) each day.

- Create Youtube Videos again - It might be obvious that I lost my motivation on my youtube channel for a while. However, I want to get those creative juice flowing and make more interesting content. I want to create more than just favourites video where I simply chat to the camera.

- Get up at 6am each day - I've set an alarm for 6am, every single day, weekends included. I'm definitely a morning person, I always feel the most motivated first thing and knowing I've given myself that extra time the morning makes me joyful, so I want early mornings to become a daily habit not just for the days the snooze button isn't calling my name.


So, I've given myself quite a list to work on. But I want to fully jump in with two feet on this. I'm trying to stop doing things half-assed, so with my full ass, I'm setting myself up for a challenge. I'm going to create a habit tracker in the bullet journal to keep on top of this, and hopefully, I'll feel brand new soon enough.

I'm still completely unsure whether I love or hate the new hair. But I am excited for the new me.


Outfit Details:


Jacket: H&M (old, similar linked)
Earring: ASOS (old, similar linked)


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Monday, 2 April 2018

March Poetry.





______


I told you
with confidence,
'I'm far from affectionate'
Then I realised,
I want to drape myself over you
Like a throw smothering a bed.

______


We feel more real
than what I had imagined
My mind can fathom
That is this something
insignificant
or
 passing.

______


It's taking a
world
of willpower
to not prematurely
feel the dull weight of our
inevitable
goodbye.


______


Often I ask myself,
Am I smart
enough?
The answer,
always
Is a wild entanglement
of
Yes
and
No


______


There's something quite enchanting
about your
swirls of old
and new
Which dance together
Like my energy
dances for
you.

______


The was a field
of love
which got lost
in the translation
between
 us

______


Maybe the word crazy,
would roll from your tongue a lot less,
 If you started to treat
those who feel for you
with a little respect


______


I can't help but
indulge
in our taste of
bittersweet
despite the
stomach ache
I'm begging for
when you 
leave

______

My heart
Breaks
over everything
We could have been
and never
were

______


*  I regularly post snippets of my poetry on my Instagram, so if you want to see more, be sure to follow


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Dress: ASOS




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